Disasociation is just another program. Remember that we are trance machines. Get in the habit of observing what trance you are in. Ask if this trance is helping or hurting you. Just like observing your emotional scale, use trance observation as a way to measure your progress. No judgement, just observation.
i do not get it !? what do you mean? example , relatives died! i miss them ! but do not have acces to my grief, loss pain feelings ! i know it is a big loss ! but i can not even crie !? and all this not expressed feelings , drains my energy .