i'm 18 and i can't afford those sessions they cost to much. i want to fix my self esteem really badly it resulted into social phobia so intense for 5 years straight i was about to suicide but didnt do it. anyone does free healing, like surrogate? because i live in Puerto Rico and i doubt it theres fastereft practicioners here. I walk self concious i cant stop thinking about my walk like when theres people i automatically walk self concious like a “gay” walk is automatic i can't control it. the other thing is fear of being watched when i feel there is people in the place i automatically feel uncomfortable,like my skin area of my eyes moves and people think i'm lokking at them!!! i hate that!…people judge me alot basicaly i'm attracting horrible things can someone help!!!!