I am in the Portland area. I am a heavy drinker. My husband just left me with four kids. I haven’t had a job for 30 yrs, I’ve been a stay at home mom. I got deeply in debt when the economy crashed. I don’t know why I am the way I am. I don’t have any specific memory of anything deeply traumatic from my childhood. I just really need help. My cycles seem to be getting more severe. I just want to be free. I’ve tried tapping along with the videos. Obviously something still isn’t clicking.